It was early 1975 and I was working at Engine 27 on Howard street in San Francisco. The station was built in the late 1800’s and still had the horse stables and hay room. In the early days horses were used to pull the fire engines to the many fires around town. The house withstood the 1906 Earthquake and Fire and it felt like we were working in a museum.
The bells went off and rang in a code that gave us the location of the fire. This was before the days of the computer. We used a large peg board which we pegged to see if we were due at the alarm. The bells in each firehouse would ring for every alarm in San Francisco, even if the incident was across town. The bells would ring which would give you a count. Every firehouse had a different count on the bells that they would respond to. Eventually you learn to count the bells in your sleep.
We were first due and headed up Mission Street. At Mission and 5th we were met by Police Officers who pointed to an old Victorian and shouted that people were trapped inside. We put on our air packs, kicked the front door in and pulled hose up two flights of stairs. As we neared the top floor, tongues of fire was shooting down the stairs. One tongue hit me in the back of the neck. Flames continued to shot at us as if Zeus himself was throwing bolts of lightning. We finally reached the top floor and continued to spray water ahead of us to cool the atmosphere so that we could pass. The fire was everywhere, it was like being inside of a lite fireplace.
We searched the living room unable to see anything because a dark gray smoke hung in front of our eyes. The smoke was so thick it felt that we were wearing blindfolds. We slowly inched our way not knowing if we were going to fall into an abyss. Visibility was zero and only experience keeps you from freaking out. You feel like you are walking in another dimension, which you are. It is a dimension of extreme danger that alerts your senses to a much higher level.
I walked on top of a rolled up rug in the center of the room The room suddenly cleared as the truckmen on the roof were able to open up ventilation holes. The smoke rose up and went through the holes and out of the building. I looked down and saw a strange sight. The rug was a human lying in the middle of the room. We had walked on top of it thinking it was a rolled up rug. It was a woman on her back with her stomach and chest wall opened up from the intense heat. Her intestines were bloated and coiled above her.
The whole time I am telling myself that this sight cannot be real. People are not raised seeing such things, it is not a part of our normal upbringing. Since the person is dead, I blocked the scene out of my mind as quickly as possible. I had to continue the search hoping to find someone alive. The new firefighters, however, must see the body and experience this part of the job. Up to this time they have only heard about fire victims, but now they are witnesses. They have experienced death first hand. The sight is upsetting because our job is to save lives so that death becomes unacceptable. It is however, a reality that firefighters must deal with. During training they are told about this part of the job, but this kind of negative information goes in one ear and out the other.
After seeing such a grim sight we learned not to dwell on it. All of us must go through this part of the job. Everyone must conquer their own fears, otherwise the job becomes a nightmare for them. We eventually learn to accept it and to put it deep into the back of our minds. We don’t forget what we have experienced, but we just bury it.
Sun, Jun 22, 2008
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